I Didn’t Think I Mattered

From Mila, 19…

I was going through some hardships emotionally. The most important things in my life seemed to be falling apart and it was hard to cope. I didn’t know where to turn or what to do. I wanted to cry all the time; I felt lost and alone.

Before praying with Catherine, I had never really prayed with someone else before, but I figured I’d take any love and help offered to me.

Feeling lost, sad and discouraged, we asked God to show me a time in my past when I first felt this way. I remembered a time when I was in elementary school. My mother had remarried, and I felt really alone and isolated from my mother’s new life with her husband and his children. It seemed as though my mother was choosing him over me. I didn’t think I mattered.

We asked God how he felt about what I was going through at that time. He let me know that he was sad about what I was experiencing and that he cared. I knew I was important to God, and he loved me deeply. He let me know that I wasn’t alone. He was there for me no matter what.

My heart started to feel lighter, and I felt as though God was lifting my worries off my shoulders. God’s presence made me feel more hopeful, and helped me see things more clearly.

Since that prayer time, I felt less alone, less sad, and more whole. I still had to deal with my hardships, but I had more courage within me to face them.

This time also motivated me to focus more on giving thanks and praying. My relationship with God has grown ever since. It showed me how to reach Him when I didn’t know how, and for that I am forever thankful.

This story is true and was posted with permission. The names were changed to ensure privacy.

If Mila’s story brought something to mind in your life that you would like help with, please email emotionalrenovation@gmail.com to schedule your own appointment for emotional renovation.

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