Before I met with Catherine, I was experiencing a lot of anxiety. I had a situation at work where I felt my boss was trying to take advantage of me, and I felt really stressed about it.
As we prayed, I realized I felt really unprotected. The feeling I had was that I was all alone and on my own, and there was no telling who might take advantage of me, or do me harm, at any minute. I had to be constantly on guard.
We asked God what he wanted to do about this, and suddenly I started laughing because what I heard God say was “Protection. Jesus offers you His protection.” Just like Napoleon Dynamite said to the high school kid who was being picked on. “Pedro offers you his protection.” I could not stop laughing. (Referring to a scene from the movie Napoleon Dynamite.)
Then I sensed a feeling coming up of just being plain terrified. We asked when was the first time I felt this way, and I remember being young, about three or four years old. My dad used to drink and fly into a rage and terrorize my mom. It was a common occurrence. I saw myself, and I was totally petrified. I felt the same way: all alone and on my own. We asked Jesus to come, and immediately I saw him pick me up like you would a two year old and hold me against his shoulder and pat my back and console me. I sensed Him saying, “Let’s take you out of this place.” I saw my home growing up as if I had x-ray vision, and I could see all the demons and darkness. It was as if God was rescuing me from hell itself.
Then, as I was being taken away, we turned to my old home, and I saw myself doing judo moves (still in Jesus arms) as if I were a well-trained ninja. Then I sensed hearing super hero theme music, and I went back into my home and kicked all the demons butts. They did not stand a chance. Even those that thought they had me licked suddenly in an instant found themselves overcome and defeated, knocked out. Then, when all the bad guys were dead, I raised my arms up high and shouted as long as I could. I knew I was shouting at the injustice. After I was done shouting, I cried and cried, and Jesus came up to me and said in a comforting way, “Come on, I have better things for you.”
I realized that the shouting was important because I had felt so powerless through the entire experience of my dad’s drinking growing up. I knew I had felt afraid, but I had not realized up to that point how powerless I had felt.
Jesus picked me back up, and I saw myself striking a pose as if I was a superhero, like his sidekick. I saw myself doing judo moves, and it felt really good, really empowering. The session ended with me facing the world, as if I was the new superhero sent to bring about justice in the world. But superimposed upon me was Jesus. It was as if I was in Jesus, and he was also in me. Wherever I went, he was there.
I then remembered by experience with my boss earlier that day, and I realized I had been changed and would deal with these situations much differently in the future knowing that Jesus offers me his protection!
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