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My New Life

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Victoria writes:

I began to realize in August 2013 that I was molested as a child but couldn’t remember what my sexual abuser did or when it began. I started to see a trauma therapist but still there was no remembrance of it at a young age. I met Catherine a few months later and she told me she could help me to remember through emotional renovation, but Jesus would have to lead us. It would be wherever Jesus wanted to take me.In December 2013, I had my first session with Catherine.  We asked Jesus what he wanted to show me today. At first I didn’t see him, but after praying, he showed up and let me know that he has always been with me and loves me very much.My next sessions were of Jesus showing me love, friendship and all the fun I had in my home as a child. This home didn’t have many fond memories for me. I had gotten to a place of comfort and safeness with him. I was ready for him to show me anything from my past without fear. I knew I could trust him completely.Then he began to show me what my sexual abuser did to me, how old I was when it began and how long the abuse went on. Even during the remembering of the abuse in action, Jesus never left my side. He was there before, during and after. He showed me that he came between me and my abuser to protect me. He wanted to take this burden and guilt from me and fill my heart with unconditional love from him.I have felt complete peace through this process. He has walked me through emotional and physical abuse I received as a child from my earthly father. Jesus had to take the place of my parent and my friend. He has led me by my right hand through all the abuse and has shown so much love to me that I’ve felt like an only child.

I had so much anger toward my sexual abuser, his wife and my father.

Jesus has rewritten my life story back to the time I first felt unworthy of being loved. He has shown me what he wanted my life to be like and how it could be today. I could never have achieved this without the emotional renovation I went through with Catherine.

I have now moved past the anger to forgiveness towards my abusers. I can now see them through Jesus’ eyes. He loves each of us so very much.

I have been given the gift of visualizing him, leading my life with love and gentleness. I feel so blessed to have been a part of this journey into a deeper relationship with my Lord, Jesus Christ, the Only One I can truly depend on.

This story is true and was posted with permission. The names were changed to ensure privacy.

If this story brought something to mind in your life that you would like help with, please email emotionalrenovation@gmail.com to schedule your own appointment for emotional renovation.
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From Fear of Failure to Powerful Possibilities

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From Sean:

I had been thinking of going into business for myself but suddenly found myself very discouraged. Thoughts like “who am I kidding?” and “I am not even close to having the right skills” were coming to mind. I had been in business for myself before, and though it had not been entirely unsuccessful, I had experienced a difficult season where things did not go well and I had run into financial difficulty as a result. On top of my discouraging thoughts was the question, “What makes me think that won’t happen again?”

As I began to pray, this question came to mind as Catherine encouraged me to ask, “Lord, when was the first time I felt discouraged like this?” I also remembered feeling this way going to college. I had had a terrible time emotionally in college and eventually dropped out. In both cases, I sensed it was not God’s plan for me to do so, but it had happened.

Then Catherine asked if there was any other time. I suddenly remembered a time when I was about seven. It was my birthday, and my mom had taken me to the toy store to purchase a gift. It was GI JOE helicopter. The helicopter required assembly, and I was so excited I decided to try to assemble it myself. But I did not follow the directions perfectly and had accidentally snapped together the helicopter frame before placing the propeller assembly inside of it. I was stuck. When my dad got home, he yelled and screamed about how I had ruined it, and I felt crushed.

Catherine asked if I would ask Jesus how he felt when that happened, and I did. Suddenly I saw a scientist lab. There is a scene in the movie Meet the Robinsons, when the main character as a boy is led by his adoptive parents into his own scientist lab, which is the place where he will ultimately build his most famous inventions. And in my memory, I suddenly saw Jesus as my adoptive parent, and He was leading me to my lab. I then saw Jesus address my father, as if to say: Do not chastise the boy for his mistake, for this is his very first experiment. I felt protected. I also realized that Jesus knew me, and that he had great plans for me.

Then another memory suddenly came to mind of me at the age of about ten, in the bathroom of our house growing up, standing quietly in the dark. There had been a power failure, and it happened on a night when my dad had been drinking heavily and, as he typically did, terrorizing my mom. I felt so alone and so helpless and hopeless.

Then Catherine asked if I could see Jesus anywhere in that memory. It was strange, but suddenly I could. He was just outside the bathroom door, shining a flashlight underneath the door. I saw myself open the door a crack, and Jesus asked if I wanted to play one of my favorite childhood games with him. This was extremely significant to me for a number of reasons. I felt that Jesus really understood me and wanted to spend time with me.

Catherine then asked if I wanted (in my memory) to go outside of the bathroom and have Jesus pick me up. But I realized I was hesitant. I was afraid to open the door any further. I felt that if I let Jesus be in control that much, something bad would happen to me. Then, at Catherine’s leading, I repented for believing the lie that Jesus was scary and terrifying, just as my father had been. I also forgave my father for teaching me that God was too terrifying to trust. I did so, and I began to cry deeply. In my mind’s eye, I then saw me reach out my hand and Jesus scoop me up in his arms. He then struck or rebuked the darkness, or something in the darkness of the bathroom. Holding me in his arms, He then went around the house placing his hand on all my family members, telling them everything was going to be all right. It was as though He was a super hero. Then Catherine had me ask: Jesus, what would it be like if I was connected to you like this all the time? I did, and I sensed God saying, “You would be a super hero like me, too, setting people free from what hold’s them bound.”

I then asked, “Lord, if I go into business for myself again, will I fail?” And I sensed Him say, “If you go into business by yourself, then it is possible you might fail. But I want you to go into business with Me.” I then saw suddenly why my past business had run into difficulty. It was as if Jesus shined a light on the moment I had gone one way when he was leading me in another. I had not done so out of rebellion; I simply had done so out of ignorance, because I did not know God wanted to partner with me in business. I had thought God wanted me to do great things for Him, to secure His favor. It had not occurred to me He wanted me to do great things with Him. And it was He who wanted to do great things through me, as I did what came naturally as I remain connected to Him.

I am now excited about going into business with God. And I will never see myself and what I do in the same way again.

This story is true and was posted with permission. The names were changed to ensure privacy.

If this story brought something to mind in your life that you would like help with, please email emotionalrenovation@gmail.com to schedule your own appointment for emotional renovation.